Friday, January 11, 2013

only a minute

Ok, I never post. It's because I really just don't have time lately. I am working full time, as usual, but in a M-F capacity, and my weekends are spent cleaning, doing laundry, and, you guessed it, hanging with G.
He is very stressed out with all of the new changes: two new schools, new place to live,  sometimes daddy has to go away on business trips, sometimes the autism program he goes to is closed, etc.
I just wanted to mention that though we have had several behavioral setbacks...like potty training, and communicating hunger and thirst, he is making progress in other ways, like acknowledging other people in the room, and asking for a preferred parent "want mommy." "want daddy"
He still fights bedtime, so matter how tired he is, and he still hates getting up in the morning. He hates to eat meals, hates to have his pull up changed, etc.
The preschool he goes to won't allow us to bring outside foods...a legal liability. Therefore, he can't be on his gluten free casein free diet that we had him on in Georgia. The teachers tell us about behaviours that are undesirable. Ones that went away when we kept him on the strict diet.
They will allow us to keep him off of milk, but still feed him foods that contain dairy.
I give up.
I know what you are thinking...what an awful mom.
But understand this: he does not have MILK or dairy at home. He does great that way, but they won't let us provide non-gluten food alternatives at his private preschool. but i can't not work, and I work during the day now...what can I do?
I'm also struggling financially (when am I not?)
I took a 10K pay cut to move back to Ohio. Paul's able to get caught up nicely due to the fact that his rent is no longer anywhere near what it was. my bills have not really changed too much. I don't make enough money to pay all my bills and buy the groceries I once enjoyed providing. I am at Paul's mercy. So if he wants chips and pasta, that is what we have to eat! However, I am glad he is providing food. I still try to buy clothes and toiletries and pay the phone bill.
It looks like I better get another job, though.
Which will take away my time from G. Which does not make me happy.

I may go back to school since my job pays for tuition, but it won't defer all my loans, just 413.00/mo of them.
I can't even pay it now.
I have started to sell stuff.

So, at least there is good news, yall!
In Georgia, I had to hold a fundraiser to get G's care started.
Here? nope...I can afford the co-pays AND I get 90 visits a year of OT/PT, AND>>>>>
we have an appt with the excellent Autism Center here which will help us figure out more of what we can do at home to help G succeed. AAAAANNND G gets OT at school now. AAAAND we love our IEP team.

So....moving to Ohio which now has mandatory coverage for Autism if you are insured... was the best thing ever.
And though I am broke as a joke, my health is slowly improving. my labs are getting better.

xo
more soon.
and thank you!!!!
gonna go hug my boy now.